school is getting tougher with the assignments, projects, and productions coming on. though i've not been going regularly, i know that things are piling up. im going berserk.

school is just ONE thing. i have my FTT this coming Monday. i have my bands. i have work.
FRIENDS, FAMILY.
WAARRRGGHH!!!

i've got many things to get for school productions. i need a pouch, pliers, straps, gloves. then, more things for my Scenography project and Lighting assignment. i've not done my Stage Management's running list, nor have i done my DI Box for Sound module. i have my Text Analysis essay due Tuesday and i have AutoCad to catch up with in Drafting. seriously, if i had been going to class and being all good, i wont be having life now.

i want to jalan raye, but tell me, HOW?!?!
my bands' are planning for the next jamming/session already.
im finally a Sound OR Lighting operator for a production next month (which im very sure is going to take up ALOT of my time). OH! and plan for Backstage Pass.
though i dont pray, i still reach for Allah to give me the strength.

guys are all the same.
i wonder, what made you love me in the first place?
how am i different now?


sometimes, i'd feel intimidated by how others would always look better then me. self-conscious, well... tell me who has never been. im turning 22 and i dont have the slightest idea what's my personality or character is. i'd feel bad when i would simply shut myself up and not interacting. at the same time, i'd feel weird for being loud and crazy. i dont know.
i might need counsellor.
pfft.

i miss chatting with Aijud the JUD. hahaha!!
once but it was one hell of a conversation.
oh well...


i need to get more black tops.
let me re-phrase: I NEED TO SHOP.