my birthday spent with family and my one and only, Emma, was AWESOME.
Seoul Garden with family after school. i had a bad tummy ache (what a luck right?!), so i didnt eat much. pfft. but i force myself to eat. of coz la since the last the 2 days before my birthday i was sick. didnt eat anything, just drank water. so yeah. then we walked around Bugis before my parents had to go back home to prepare for some guests who were coming to our house. I helped my sis get her prom dress. well, bare 16 and she already has a Dorothy Perkins dress!!! guess having an elder sister is good after all. you're expose to such stuffs earlier. coz for me, that only happens when im 18-19?? hahaha!! oh! and she's having a prom. Junyuan didnt have such thing for their pioneers. F*** rite. oh well, im glad we had spent our time together. after then it was Flyer with Emma!!! it was STUPENDOUS!!! we were both taking pictures like no one's business. acting like tourists and all. hahaha!! ooooo!! we caught the sunset from the Flyer. B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!! i was happy, getting to spent my birthday with her. we tried to catch up as much as possible. our initial plan was to go to Fish n Co for dinner, but the journey back to the outlet was long and we were tired. so we made do with Popeye!! weeeeee!! YUMMY YUM YUM!! as were were eating, i got a call from Joshua asking if i could audition that night. i said ok and i have to convince Emma to accompany me. it's my birthday, after all. she wasnt hesitant la and only did i realised what i had put myself into. hahaha! coz the audition is to sing live in a pub. thank god Emma was there. if not, i couldnt bring myself to even go through the door. she's like a coach beside me, supporting me, encouraging me, etc. OMG. i dont know what i'll do without her. and yeah, i did it. it wasnt my best but i felt good singing. hahaha! guess i'll sing just fine IF i will ever sing in front of an audience again. hehe! then we took a cab home.
definitely a memorable birthday.
THANK YOU LOVES.

i've been doing my assignments. i've been handing them. i've been going to school more regularly (though i skipped today. body's aching, lack of sleep for days). the only assignment i didnt do is the Gobo for Lighting module. havent got time to get the stuffs. pfft. thought being in the technical side i wont need to spent so much. but well, well, well... im a regular in Art Friend now. great. when i thought i wouldnt need to go there EVER.
AutoCAD for school again and im loving it (but carrying the laptop around again isnt).
Lighting workshop was great. Rigging, focusing, playing with the system. love it.

im glad things are cleared when i no longer have any love for you. it hurts, but much lesser. Allah and time will help me with this process of having you as a good friend IF you even treat me as such coz guys say things just to make girls feel better... like they mean it.
i dont if its a karma coz i've been neglecting guys who
1. likes me and waits for me for years.
2. gives me all the attention.
3. pays for everything when we go out.
well, that sucks.


now, i'd like to share some nice things with you.
recently at work, i had to do 4 cartons of big but not heavy gift box sets (christmas season is coming). as usual, i had to tape the boxes before displaying them. after i'd made the space for the 2 titles, i started taping and piling one by one. then there's this 5 year old chinese girl and her brother watching me do it. they were looking for their father so when i asked if they want me to call their father they said there isnt a need to cause their dad told them to wait for him there (children's area). the brother was running around browsing books but the girl stayed and watched me. when her brother came back to check on her, he asked what i was doing.
so i said, "oh, im taping these boxes."
they he asked again with while playing around the area "why do you have to tape the boxes?"
the girl chimed after him "yeah, why you have to tape the boxes?"
"coz if i dont, there's going to be people to takes them off", i replied.
"but if you tape the boxes they cannot look at it"
"well, they can come to me for help to open for them"
and they went "Oooooooh"
and her brother went off again. i can see that she was shy so i started talking.
"so you like to read books?"
"no"
"really? then you like coming here?"
"no"
"hahaha! ok then what do you like to do? play with dolls?"
"hehehe! no, i dont like that"
"then what do you like?"
"nothing"
"really?"
"yeah, nothing"
"ok"
after a while she came nearer.
"so how old are you?"
"five"
"schooling?"
"yeah"
"you like schooling?"
"no"
"no? why?"
silence.
"well, you dont like to play in school? colouring? painting?"
"i like painting"
"hahah! see! you do like something. you like painting"
and she giggled. "yeah"
guess she got more comfortable with me and tried to help me hands on. but i was afraid cause the binder was sharp. but since she doesnt like books, i let her help her. she held the binder and i held her hands. make sure that the sharp part does not come in contact with her of i'll sure be in trouble. and her brother came in and there somehow fight for the "assistant to me" position. that was scary but as i somehow tried to calm things down, they managed to learn to share (guess their parents taught them well. i want my kids to be like that, too)
"ok mei mei. i go one time, then its your turn ok?"
"ok"
so there were 3. they were so excited i tell you. hahaha!! i let them take out the box from the carton and helped them with the taping one after another. it was tiring after a while. then as things were going smoothly the brother got so engrossed with the taping, he elbowed her in the face behind him. she didnt cry but i know that it hurts. i rubbed the area where i thought it hurt and asked if she's ok. his brother was scared, i can see, but he tried not to show it. then i ask him what he should say.
"sorry mei mei"
she didnt say anything though.
"i think you should kiss your mei mei"
"no. here mei mei, it's your turn. you can do 2 times"
and went off and do minded his business.
the girl slowly came back to me and took the binder. she was all chripy again. then after 2 times, she called out for her brother.
"do another one", he shouted.
"wah! do another one?"
sounded like a whine but im sure she's happy to do more. and when she's done, she shouted for him again and he said the same thing (guess i know why he let her to do more).
"wah! im tired and he wants me to do another one."
"if you're tired i can do it"
"no it's ok. i can do it. cause just now you said you're tired but you still tape the boxes"
i just smiled. after a while, their father came. the brother rushed back to the scene to do another box. the little girl stayed by my side and waited to do another one before they go and i asked for her name.
"Elizabeth"
a little girl whom i dont even know made my day.
thank you.

Russell Peters brings smile to my face each day. and im happier now.
GMax rides later tonight!