never did i controlled your life.
neither did i caged you.
i let you free and accepted you for you.
never did i forced you to change.
nor leave you when you're in need.
out of 5 months, i did good for 4 months, 29 days and 22 hours.
i know how one truly loves the other.
coz i was one.
you werent.


so why am i dreading this?
you'd opened my heart back just to break it again.



im exhausted. school's been really crazy with the production. my lighting designer has more then a hundred colour gels for me to find and make. im lucky to have Ratna helping me. it's been a crazy day. projects, assignments, essays.
this is one of the days when i'd like to babble with someone special over the phone after a long day.

it's amazing that i still have tears to spare.
sigh.